Tuesday, December 06, 2005

over the cliff...

felt really inspired by 'citr'('catcher in the rye' by j.d.salinger, for the ignorant)...came up with the following...
disclaimer:you might not understand what is being said if you haven't read the book.

running in gay abandon
through the rye field
never thinking of what was yet to come...
running like a madman
living every moment of life
never thinking that this could end...
running right over
the edge of a crazy cliff
never knowing that this was the end...

where were you catcher in the rye?
why didn't you come to save me?
i believed you catcher in the rye
but i'm over the cliff already...

wish i could return
to that field of rye
and run again in innocence
with not a phony
thing in sight
not a hint of pretence...
but the lagoon gets icy and frozen
and the ducks have got to go
i'd like to break the ice and swim
but they just wont let me go
they make me play by rules they make
life being a game and all...
you said it was crazy but you'd do it
then why'd you let me fall?

where were you catcher in the rye?
why didn't you come to save me?
i believed you catcher in the rye
but i'm over the cliff already...

i don't like anything thats happening
i don't like a million things
i don't...
the lagoon is frozen and i want to go
flying away with the ducks
i won't...

i won't give up before getting started
i won't keep falling and falling...
i won't go on down and down
i'm not afraid of stopping...

i don't need you catcher in the rye,
i'm over the cliff already...
but i'll make my own field of rye
and then i won't miss everybody...

Friday, December 02, 2005

when she's gone...

Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
It's not warm when she's away
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
and she's always gone too long
Anytime she goes away

Wonder this time where she's gone
Wonder if she's gonna stay
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
and this house just ain't no home
anytime she goes away

And I know, I know...

Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
Only darkness everyday
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
and this house just ain't no home
anytime she goes away...

Monday, November 21, 2005

therefore, i seek quietus...

someone by the name of 'bien a vous' left a comment on my earlier post quietus...i started replying,but then i thought that the reply would mean explaining my poem's central concept...so i am writing this post...
the comment was...
"u wander thru eternity seeking quietus ....
essaying escape.... from eternity ...
n ur own dark shadow ...
eternal life ... eternal youth ..
eternal thirst ... eternal knowledge ...
eternal unrest ... eternal quest ...
eternal solitude ... eternal peace ...
the only constant in an ephemeral cosmos ...
relinquish this power for an unknown mundane end ?
immortality a curse or immortality ur curse ??"

well said...
eternal youth? i beg to differ...youth is a state of mind where every experience is relatively new to you and you want to enjoy every aspect of life to its fullest...what after that? are you still young when you are not excited by anything life has to offer? when everything becomes ordinary and boring?
eternal knowledge? nobody on earth knows everything...even if we were to coalesce all human knowledge throughout history, we would still be left with many unanswered questions which would continuosly gnaw on the heart of the immortal...and haven't you heard, ignorance is bliss???
eternal quest? for what??? what are we all seeking? the answers to all the unanswered questions? god? a state of continuous existence?...the first two will never be found and the third is undesirable if they're not...and according to many schools of thought what every solitary soul is striving for is either a state of non-existence or union with the supreme, both of which involve destruction of the self...if that is true bliss then immortality is a curse...
eternal peace?there has never been peace in the world and there never will be...man has the constant need for an enemy, because the social structure needs an external threat so that it does not implode...in such a world full of morons and animals not fit to be called civilised, which soul can find peace? if you see people repeating their mistakes over and over without learning from history, how can you be at peace?
i know it is better to rule in hell than to serve in heaven, but it is better to serve in heaven or hell than to remain on this earth forever, even if you do rule it...therefore, i seek quietus...
by the way, let me clarify that the poem is not in my voice but in that of count dracula...immortality is definitely not my curse, though i would have loved to be a vampire...


random thought...
i just want to get away from it all...go away to some remote corner of the earth for a few years...somewhere where nobody knows me, where modern technology still has a long way to go...where i can see the clear sky at night in all its splendour with not a human light in sight and hold my love gently as she goes off to sleep...

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

quietus...lament of the vampire

i loved the idea of the last tag so much that i decided i'll do it again...so here goes...

quietus \kwy-EE-tus\ noun

1 : final settlement (as of a debt)
2 : removal from activity; especially : death
3 : something that quiets or represses

i wander through eternity seeking quietus
to the covenant with my father...
he gave me eternal life...
eternal thirst,eternal unrest,
eternal solitude...
i wander in the darkness seeking quietus
all around me are flowers,they wither and die
i stand like the tree,gnarled and old...
nothing grows in my dark shadow...
immortality is a curse,i seek quietus...

Monday, November 14, 2005

the dance of the dervishes...

saw this one on s!'s blog...tagged myself with this one as it seemed interesting...now zis iz wat iz to be done...
1. flip open a dictionary and point to a word / get word of the day from dictionary.com
2. type the word into google images.
3. pick an image that strikes you.
4. write a 10 line riff off the image.
5. use the word or the meaning at least once within the first 5 lines.
6. tag 3 other bloggers on your list.
so here goes...

ebullient \ih-BUL-yuhnt\, adjective:
1. Overflowing with enthusiasm or excitement; high-spirited.
2. Boiling up or over.

why are you so happy o soul
trapped as you are in this world
of illusion and misery...
why so ebullient and frenzied?
i have found the way to end all this
i dance to the rhythm of life itself...
i dance and i'm one with every atom...
i dance to dispel all illusion...
i dance and i have been set free,
for one is all and all is one...
in this moment of ebullience and ecstasy...
aham brahmasmi...

and i would like to tag dc,thedq and pallavi...have fun...

Friday, November 11, 2005

lord of the dance...

"Because You love the Burning -ground, I have made a Burning-ground of my heart - That You, Dark One, hunter of the Burning-ground, May dance Your eternal dance."
-Bengali Hymn

this simple sculpture is perhaps the best representation of the supreme being in human history...this masterful work of art depicts shiva as the lord of the dance, nataraj...
the dance of destruction,the dance of creation,the rhythm of life and death...the dance of bliss...he dances to destroy,he dances to create,he dances to dispel all illusion,he dances to enlighten,he dances to set you free...
the fire in the left hand destroys all evil...the damru in the right is the symbol of united male and female energies which are the source of all creation...the right foot rests on apasmara,a symbol of illusion,which is overcome by the lord...the left foot,held aloft,symbolises salvation and the lower left hand points towards it...this foot is also in a different plane than the rest of the sculpture...the lower right hand says 'fear not'...the flowing matted hair show the frenzy of the motion which is the dance that lends its motion to the entire cosmos,represented by the arch of flames around the dancer...
another perspective to this piece of art is offered by Fritzov Kapra,who says "every subatomic particle not only performs an energy dance, but also is an energy dance; a pulsating process of creation and destruction…without end…For the modern physicists, then Shiva's dance is the dance of subatomic matter. As in Hindu mythology, it is a continual dance of creation and destruction involving the whole cosmos; the basis of all existence and of all natural phenomena."
for a more detailed analysis of all the elements of the nataraj click here...

"The source of all movement,
Shiva's dance,
Gives rhythm to the universe.
He dances in evil places,
In sacred,
He creates and preserves,
Destroys and releases.
We are part of this dance
This eternal rhythm,
And woe to us if, blinded
By illusions,
We detach ourselves
From the dancing cosmos,
This universal harmony…"

-Ruth Peel

Thursday, November 10, 2005

writer's block...

been wanting to write a post for a long time now...lack of time,energy and creativity have been stopping me...various times in the past few days i wanted to write about:
1.the aryan invasion theory debate...i have a lot of thoughts about it...too many to put down...
2.the symolism of the nataraj...i was blown totally over by all the symbolism that has been put into that one simple work of art that a large part of india calls god...
3.the symbolism of other religious art in india...our culture is just teeming with pieces of high art that any common man without an aesthetic sense would not even have looked at twice if they weren't gods...the shivalinga,the depiction of kali,ardhanarishwara,etc...
4.the greatest selling work of fiction ever...the holy bible...the fallacies in the revealed 'truth'...how christianity and judaism are no better than any 'pagan' religion...in fact much worse...
5.the wondrous world of 'alice in wonderland' and 'through the looking glass' and their myriad interpretations and relevance to the real world...
6.the movies i've seen recently...
7.how i've been going crazy,slowly...but surely...

still can't write anything...

Thursday, November 03, 2005

losing my religion...

Life is bigger
It's bigger than you
And you are not me
The lengths that I will go to
The distance in your eyes
Oh no I've said too much
I set it up

That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you
And I don't know if I can do it
Oh no I've said too much
I haven't said enough
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

Every whisper
Of every waking hour I'm
Choosing my confessions
Trying to keep an eye on you
Like a hurt lost and blinded fool
Oh no I've said too much
I set it up

Consider this
The hint of the century
Consider this
The slip that brought me
To my knees failed
What if all these fantasies
Come flailing around
Now I've said too much
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

But that was just a dream
That was just a dream

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

thoughts and actions...

another year passes me by...another milestone to be crossed...a score and two years(all right, one day less) spent on this earth as a part of this experiment in futility called life...this unquenched thirst for knowledge grows more and more as you try to satiate it...why do we have the powers of logic and reasoning when our only seeming purpose in life is to survive and propagate?...this endless game of life and death continues...happy(???) birthday to me in advance...


participated in my first quiz as an adult on saturday...got the third prize...
also attended a theatre workshop during the weekend...learned a little about the elements of theatre and art...also reconfirmed my belief in my knowledge of bangla...i can comprehend almost completely now though i still find it difficult to speak fluently...hope to learn the script soon...
felt really nice when a theatre professional told me to try and keep doing dramatics throughout my life...refuelled my passion for dramatics...
have been really busy with preparations for illumination and rangoli competition(a unique tradition at iit-kgp) as diwali comes near...
been reading a little of the 'holy bible'...being surprised by the fact that people still consider it to be THE TRUTH...not allegorical, but literal!?!


"'Twas brillig and the slithy toves
did gyre and gimble in the wabe.
All mimsy were the borogoves,
and the mome raths outgrabe.
- Lewis Carroll(from Jabberwocky in 'Through the looking glass')

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

i'm self centred and going to hell....

Paranoid Personality Disorder:Low
Schizoid Personality Disorder:Low
Schizotypal Personality Disorder:Moderate
Antisocial Personality Disorder:High
Borderline Personality Disorder:Low
Histrionic Personality Disorder:High
Narcissistic Personality Disorder:Very High
Avoidant Personality Disorder:Low
Dependent Personality Disorder:Low
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:Low

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The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Sixth Level of Hell - The City of Dis!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)Very High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)Very High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)Extreme
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Extreme
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)Extreme
Level 7 (Violent)High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)Very High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)Very High

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Tuesday, October 04, 2005

mama i'm coming home...

after a long time of enduring mess food and getting frustrated in this village called kharagpur, i'm going home!...yes,today i've gone all the way from...
"there's a feeling i get,when i look to the west
and my spirit is crying for leaving..."
"mama now i'm coming home,i'm not all you wished me be
mother's love for her son,spoken,help me be...
yeah,i took your love for granted and all the things you said to me
i need your love to comfort me"

on another note,doing 2 plays at the same time is not an easy job...especially if you play the lead role in both and write and direct one of them...phew!!!...it ends today...i'll be playing ebenezer scrooge in a production of 'christmas carol' today...yesterday i was satan in a self-written play titled 'murder at the station'...let's hope the play goes well and we win something in the competition...

will be back in 10 days...happy durga puja,vijaydashmi or whatever you wish to celebrate...

"Times have changed and times are strange
Here I come, but I ain’t the same
Mama, I’m coming home"
"I could be right, I could be wrong
Hurts so bad, it’s been so long
Mama, I’m coming home"
"I don’t care about the sunshine, yeah
’cause mama, mama, I’m coming home
I’m coming home"...

Wednesday, September 28, 2005


i'm a little confused...i saw this tag earlier on ideasmithy's blog and it was supposed to be a 55 word story...i was tagged by dreamcatcher who wrote a 54 word story...so to remove any discrepancies i'll write both...

7th of july
she was wearing a dress black as the night.she was the most beautiful girl i had ever layed my eyes upon.she had a bag slung across her shoulder.we got into the same train.i went and sat next to her.i was exhilarated.she suddenly reached into her bag and there was an explosion.it was all over.

54 words...

lucifer speaks
he expelled me for being too proud.is pride a sin?why should i be subservient to someone who is obviously inferior?i’ll have my revenge.i’ll prove to him that his chosen ones can easily be made to forget him.they’ll worship me even if they profess otherwise.after all, it’s better to rule in hell than serve in heaven.

55 words...

in my turn i tag handa,thedq and aekta,if u've got the time...and to avoid confusion lets keep it at 55 words...

Saturday, September 24, 2005

thus spake nietzsche...

"The conditions under which any one understands me, and necessarily understands me--I know them only too well. Even to endure my seriousness, my passion, he must carry intellectual integrity to the verge of hardness. He must be accustomed to living on mountain tops--and to looking upon the wretched gabble of politics and nationalism as beneath him. He must have become indifferent; he must never ask of the truth whether it brings profit to him or a fatality to him... He must have an inclination, born of strength, for questions that no one has the courage for; the courage for the forbidden; predestination for the labyrinth. The experience of seven solitudes. New ears for new music. New eyes for what is most distant. A new conscience for truths that have hitherto remained unheard. And the will to economize in the grand manner--to hold together his strength, his enthusiasm...Reverence for self; love of self; absolute freedom of self.....

Very well, then! of that sort only are my readers, my true readers, my readers foreordained: of what account are the rest?--The rest are merely humanity.--One must make one's self superior to humanity, in power, in loftiness of soul,--in contempt."

FRIEDRICH W. NIETZSCHE (in the preface to 'the antichrist')

Thursday, September 22, 2005

yet another song...

if french is the language of love...german is the language of anger...
consequently, german is the perfect language for metal!!!
listened to a lot of rammstein this morning...and this song keeps playing over and over in my head...it's one of my favorite rammstein numbers because of the lyrics...it's called "Asche zu asche"...

"Warmer körper,heißes kreuz
Falsches urteil,kaltes grab
Auf dem kreuze lieg ich hier
Sie schlagen mir die nägel ein
Das feuer wäscht die seele rein
Und übrig bleibt ein mundvoll asche

Asche zu asche

Ich komm wieder,in zehn tagen
Als dein schatten,und werd dich jagen
Heimlich werd ich auferstehen
Und du wirst um gnade flehen
Dann knie ich mich in dein gesicht
Und steck den finger in die asche

Asche zu asche
Und staub zu staub"

for those who don't know deutsche(german for those who don't know deutsche),like myself, here's the translation...

Warm body, hot cross,
False judgment,
Cold grave
On the cross i'm lying now,
They pound the nails into me
The fire cleanses my soul and a mouthful of ashes remains

Ashes to ashes

I shall chase you
Secretly i shall resurrect and you will beg for mercy
Then i'll kneel in your face an put my finger into the ashes

Ashes to ashes
and dust to dust...

Saturday, September 17, 2005

sorry...i went crazy...

You Are 40% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird...
But too damn weird to do anything about it!

hehehe...pretty wierd,eh?

How You Live Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.
You say whatever is on your mind. Other people's reactions don't phase you.
You're open to new people and friends, which makes you a pretty popular person.
You tend to always dream of things within reach - and you usually get them.


Your Personality Profile

You are sexy, powerful, and bold.
You're full of passion and energy...
Sometimes this passion has a dark side.

You feel most alive when you're seducing someone.
You never fail to get someone's attention.
Quick minded, you're also quick to lose your temper!


Your Career Type: Artistic

You are expressive, original, and independent.
Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art.

You would make an excellent:

Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor
Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer
Dancer - DJ - Graphic Designer
Illustrator - Musician - Sculptor

The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary.

i knew it...

Everything Pizza

Diverse and adaptable
You enjoy the full buffet of life
It's hard to you play favorites with friends... or flavors
There's very little that you dislike!


Your Power Color Is Gold

At Your Highest:

You are engrossed in passions that mentally stimulate you.

At Your Lowest:

You seek thrills and neglect what's important in your life.

In Love:

You see dating as adventure and approach it with an open attitude.

How You're Attractive:

You passion for life makes others passionate about you.

Your Eternal Question:

"Am I Having Fun?"

am i?

Your Kissing Purity Score: 60% Pure

For you, kissing isn't a casual thing

Lip to lip action makes your heart sing


You Are Somewhat Machiavellian

You're not going to mow over everyone to get ahead...
But you're also powerful enough to make things happen for yourself.
You understand how the world works, even when it's an ugly place.
You just don't get ugly yourself - unless you have to!

i guess so...

Your Hidden Talent

You have the natural talent of rocking the boat, thwarting the system.
And while this may not seem big, it can be.
It's people like you who serve as the catalysts to major cultural changes.
You're just a bit behind the scenes, so no one really notices.

long live the revolution!!!

You Should Learn French

C'est super! You appreciate the finer things in life... wine, art, cheese, love affairs.
You are definitely a Parisian at heart. You just need your tongue to catch up...

je t'ame,mon ami...thats all the french i know for now...always wanted to learn though...

Your Brain's Pattern

Your brain is always looking for the connections in life.
You always amaze your friends by figuring out things first.
You're also good at connecting people - and often play match maker.
You see the world in fluid, flexible terms. Nothing is black or white.

always said it's all grey...

You Are a Freedom Rocker!

You're stuck in the 70s - for better or worse
Crazy hair, pot soaked clothes, and tons of groupies
Your kind showed the world how to rock
Is that freedom rock?... Well turn it up man!

peace,love and freedom!

You are Agnostic

You're not sure if God exists, and you don't care.
For you, there's no true way to figure out the divine.
You rather focus on what you can control - your own life.
And you tend to resent when others "sell" religion to you.

damn right...

Your Inner Child Is Happy

You see life as simple, and simple is a very good thing.
You're cheerful and upbeat, taking everything as it comes.
And you decide not to worry, even when things look bad.
You figure there's just so many great things to look forward to.

if ur happy and u know it clap ur hands...

thts all for me,myself and the people in my head...got bored studying for an exam...this was the result...plz forgive me...i know not what i do...

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

white rabbit...

recently heard a great song by a band called jefferson airplane...the song is called white rabbit...its a good song with great lyrics...my friend told me that the band wrote this song on lsd and i found that quite probable when i read the lyrics...its all about "alice in wonderland" and "through the looking glass"...i liked those books a lot when i read them but i never realised that they could very naturally be taken as full of drug references...will not insult you by giving an interpretation of the lyrics...just take a look and be surprised...

"One pill makes you larger
And one pill makes you small
And the ones that mother gives you
Don't do anything at all
Go ask Alice
When she's ten feet tall

And if you go chasing rabbits
And you know you're going to fall
Tell 'em a hookah smoking caterpillar
Has given you the call
To call Alice
When she was just small

When the men on the chessboard
Get up and tell you where to go
And you've just had some kind of mushroom
And your mind is moving low
Go ask Alice
I think she'll know

When logic and proportion
Have fallen slowly dead

And the White Knight is talking backwards
And the Red Queen's off with her head
Remember what the dormouse said:
"Feed your Head
Feed your Head!"

mind blowing...isn't it?

Monday, September 12, 2005

bored of education...

another break in life at kgp arrives...another occasion when the professors reaffirm the fact that they have utterly failed to teach the students anything at all(either because the students didn't bother to come to the boring classes or because they can't teach at all...)...exam time arrives again...the most boring times for me in the last 3-4 yrs have been the times when exams come around...i had thought that i won't let these midsems to work me up again to write something...but can't be helped...when everybody around you is talking, walking, sleeping, eating, drinking, peeing and shitting midsems then you are bound to catch that infectious disease and look for a release...so ignore this post as the raving and ranting of a frantically bored person...so many have gone past, this too will pass...

Thursday, September 08, 2005

mission kashmir...

coming back from the hospital after a long time...the dreaded chicken pox struck me without any warnings...nobody around me had it and it seems i gave it to no one at all...really feels bad not to have given anyone else the chance to give up their freedom for a few days...
now coming to the point...for a long time now i have been interested in song meanings and interpretations and led zep has been my greatest challenge...finally i think i have made some sense out of the song kashmir which incidentally is credited to all 4 members of the band...so here goes...
to give a little background...from my wanderings on the net i discovered that bonham was a great fan of tolkien and parts of this song are inspired by his "the simarillion"(forgive me if i got the spelling wrong)...the song is based on the bands travels through the deserts of morocco...now lets go on to the lyrics...

"Oh let the sun beat down upon my face, stars to fill my dream
I am a traveler of both time and space, to be where I have been
To sit with elders of the gentle race, this world has seldom seen
They talk of days for which they sit and wait and all will be revealed
Talk and song from tongues of lilting grace, whose sounds caress my ear
But not a word I heard could I relate, the story was quite clear
Oh, oh."
here they are obviously imagining morocco as the land of the elves who are called the gentle race...the elder elves(or moroccan tribesmen) discuss prophecies and sing songs about them in a language we don't understand but somehow understand the gist of what is said...probably this part has been written by bonham...

"Oh, I been flying... mama, there ain’t no denyin’
I’ve been flying, ain’t no denyin’, no denyin’"
this is an obvious drug reference...as they are flying high...in all probability this part is plant's(or maybe page's)...

"All I see turns to brown, as the sun burns the ground
And my eyes fill with sand, as I scan this wasted land
Trying to find, trying to find where I’ve been."
a rude awakening to reality...after the effects have worn off they see themselves in a desert land with no elves or prophecies...

"Oh, pilot of the storm who leaves no trace, like thoughts inside a dream
Heed the path that led me to that place, yellow desert stream
My shangri-la beneath the summer moon, I will return again
Sure as the dust that floats high and true, when movin’ through kashmir."
the promised land of the prophecies and elves is sought by them...they are sure that they will return to this shangri-la,this kashmir...the reference to kashmir must not be taken to refer to the disputed land but to the ideal of heaven on earth represented by it...

"Oh, father of the four winds, fill my sails, across the sea of years
With no provision but an open face, along the straits of fear
they ask god to give them courage for this journey of soul searching to reach that promised land(that ideal) through defeating their fears...

"When I’m on, when I’m on my way, yeah
When I see, when I see the way, you stay-yeah
Ooh, yeah-yeah, ooh, yeah-yeah, when I’m down...
Ooh, yeah-yeah, ooh, yeah-yeah, well I’m down, so down
Ooh, my baby, oooh, my baby, let me take you there
Let me take you there. let me take you there"
through this seeking the singer asks the beloved to stay with him so that they can reach this state of mind together...

this interpretation struck me suddenly while listening to the song one day with my friend handa...i started telling him and he said that this was the best interpretation that he had heard so far and coaxed me to put it on my blog...so here it is...it might well not be what the band intended but still its what i take it to mean...i'll end with a quote on kashmir in persian...
Gar Firdaus bar-ruye zamin ast
Hamin asto hamin asto hamin ast.

(if there is heaven on earth...it is here,it is here,it is here...)

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

independence day?

this post is long overdue...a lot of thoughts came into my mind as i watched while india celebrated her 58th independence day...there was a special irony in the celebrations in my own institute...the cadets of ncc from the 1st and 2nd years were there for a parade, students who had to take nss becuase its a part of their course requirements were there, senior professors were there because the director was there, lots of schoolchildren were there along with their teachers to perform skits, dances and the like...apart from tht- me and my girlfrend coz we had some time to while away and nothing better to do, a local crowd who don't get to come inside the institute on normal days, the vp of the students' body and...nobody else! what does this tell us? i'll tell you what...the ncc and nss people were there for better grades in courses they had to pass for their degrees...the profs were there because they had to put in a good impression with the director...the director was there because he had to be there as the head of an "institute of national importance"...the schoolchildren were there because their teachers told them so...the teachers were there beacuse it is a time honored tradition and a prestigious thing to perform in the IIT...
this brings me to an important question...what was being celebrated there? independence? liberty? freedom?...who came there of his or her own free will to celebrate our independence?...are we really free?

Wednesday, August 10, 2005


first things first...to handa:saw this on ur blog...thot i'll try it out...so here goes...

Three names I go by: bhaatu, anantzing, ganju (thnx to my propensity to shave off my head at the drop of a hat, pun intended)
Three screen names: infinity, infinityants, freedom2b (lifted str8 frm the pepsi ads)
Three things I like about myself: 3 is a small number, can't be listed ;)
Three things I don't like about myself: 3 is a small number, can't be listed :D
Three things that scare me: too much light, angry profs(i have a lot of those), myself
Three essentials: sutta, daru and chicken
Three things I like in the opposite sex: just three????????
Three things I want to do badly now: smoke, booze and eat...:D
Three careers I am considering right now: Technocrat(sounds impressive, but really boring), Actor, Writer
Three places I want to go on vacation: Paris(not Hilton), Rome, southern France
Three kid's names : cheeku...bunty aur babli...:)
Three things to do before dying: watch Metallica live, write a novel, win Nobel peace prize...(hazaaron khwahishein aisi ki har khwahish pe dam nikle...)

Friday, August 05, 2005

catcher in the rye...

as another session starts i have a foreboding that this is the beginning of the end...most of my batchmates will graduate at the end of this year while i, fortunately or unfortunately, will stay back for one more year...the fact that soon it will be time for me to graduate and go on to doing a run-of-the-mill boring job really frustates me...on the other hand i might get into a b-school and defer it for 2 more years, but i'll still be sitting behind a desk doing a boring job(maybe with a bigger salary and bigger headaches but it's still boring) 4 years hence...economic constraints will most definitely stop me from doing what i really want to do...i am nearing the precipice at the end of the rye field, and there is no one to catch me...

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

movie mania 8

kingdom of heaven- this is one hell of a movie to watch!a nice reinterpretation of history which shows the muslim conqueror of jerusalem in a new light...hitherto, salahuddin, more commonly known in the west as saladin had been painted as a villain in history, even to the extent of calling him the antichrist, but this movie shows him as a kind, tolerant and intelligent ruler and general...also has some pretty nice views on god and holiness...must watch...
bunty aur bubli- new concept for indian cinema...should do well on that basis and for the fact that it pits together the amazing father and son duo of amitabh and abhishake bachchan...the movie is entertaining and good timepass...the song kajrare is a fun song with aish makin a special appearance and big and small b dancing away to glory together...
naina- nicely made movie...but somehow it fails to scare you despite the visuals and sounds...maybe there is too less of thrills in the movie and perhaps the ending is too hackneyed...
thats all for now...more later...

religion of the civilised world...

"When we hear the ancient bells growling on a Sunday morning we ask ourselves: Is it really possible! This, for a jew, crucified two thousand years ago, who said he was God's son? The proof of such a claim is lacking. Certainly the Christian religion is an antiquity projected into our times from remote prehistory; and the fact that the claim is believed - whereas one is otherwise so strict in examining pretensions - is perhaps the most ancient piece of this heritage. A god who begets children with a mortal woman; a sage who bids men work no more, have no more courts, but look for the signs of the impending end of the world; a justice that accepts the innocent as a vicarious sacrifice; someone who orders his disciples to drink his blood; prayers for miraculous interventions; sins perpetrated against a god, atoned for by a god; fear of a beyond to which death is the portal; the form of the cross as a symbol in a time that no longer knows the function and ignominy of the cross -- how ghoulishly all this touches us, as if from the tomb of a primeval past! Can one believe that such things are still believed?"

Nietzsche, 'Human,All too Human'

Sunday, May 15, 2005


hehehehehe...another stupid quiz...


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movie mania 7

i'm back on my fave topic after a long, long time...let's begin without much further ado...
sin city- based on graphic novels by watsisname, sin city has all the wierdos and strange happenings of a potboiler...what sets this movie apart is the fact that while animators are busting their asses to make animation more realistic, sin city does the exact reverse...it takes real shots and makes it look like, well...a graphic novel! watchable...
hitch- another cute, sweet romantic comedy...will smith is good in the title role but there's nothing new in the movie...watch if you are not diabetic...
kaal- oh my god!people wearing microminis in a forest???a guy hunting with a pistol???a whole circus of tigers waylaying a jeep???for god's sake...when will they learn to put some realism into a bollywood movie??? nobody, and that means nobody ever goes into a forest wearing designer outfits...its practically impossible for anyone less than robin hood with guns to actually hunt an animal in the underbrush with a pistol...and tigers are very solitary, shy animals which only lucky people see more than once in their lifetimes...plz get real...

Friday, March 25, 2005

gone to hell

why r classes so boring tht i dont attend n thn get into trouble of all sorts...i know its my mistake n i should have attended classes but tht cant be helped now, can it?...the profs have to go ahead n be all pricky abt it even though i can give an exam as well as the next guy without doing any classes at all...basically they dont recognize the idiosyncracies of genius when they see them...but cant blame them either, genius has always been doomed to ignominy and failure among its contemporaries...the recognition comes when it is too late to recognize it...so let it be with caesar...the day will come when these very professors of mine will be forced to accept my superiority over any other students of theirs...maybe not in the field i have chosen(ill-chosen would be more like it) but i am sure i'll be successful...thnx for going through these megalomanic rantings of this spent force...and remember, like the phoenix, i'll rise one day from the ashes of academic failure!!!