i never told you so...

standard routine for boredom...give stupid tests on the net and post the answers on your blog...

What Famous Leader Are You?
personality tests by similarminds.com

muhahahaha!!!!

You Are 88% Open Minded

You are so open minded that your brain may have fallen out! Well, not really. But you may be confused on where you stand. You don't have a judgemental bone in your body, and you're very accepting. You enjoy the best of every life philosophy, even if you sometimes contradict yourself.

How Open Minded Are You?

i'm also getting crazier than ever...if you don't believe me take a look...

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Disorder:	Very High
Schizoid Disorder:	Moderate
Schizotypal Disorder:	Moderate
Antisocial Disorder:	High
Borderline Disorder:	Moderate
Histrionic Disorder:	Very High
Narcissistic Disorder:	Very High
Avoidant Disorder:	Moderate
Dependent Disorder:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	Moderate
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -- -- Personality Disorders --

compare these results with the same test given in october 05 and you'll know that i've gone up a few notches on quite a few disorders :D...i'm more paranoid, schizoid, borderline, histrionic, avoidant, dependent and obsessive-compulsive than ever before...the new improved(???) me!!!

combine all this and you would come to the conclusion that i'm probably insane according to conventional wisdom...now i never told you so...or did i?

zindagi jab bhi teri bazm mein laati hai humein
ye zameen chaand se behtar nazar aati hai humein...

kisses in the rain,
coffee and clouds,
the starry skies,
the moonlit nights,
chocolates and ice cream,
the look in your eyes...

you're all i'll ever want

surkh phoolon se mehak uthti hain dil ki raahein
din dhale yun teri aawaaz bulati hai humein...

the way you smell,
the way you talk,
the way you smile,
the way you walk,
the way you laugh with twinkling eyes,
the way you feign anger when you can't stop smiling,
the way you talk about the future,
the way you fit right into my arms...

you're all i'll ever love

yaad teri kabhi dastak, kabhi sargoshi se
raat ke pichhle pehar roz jagaati hai humein...

waking up next to you,
watching tv together,
listening to songs while holding hands,
slipping those three magic words into your ear
with oblivious people around,
sitting together, no need for words...in silent lucidity...

you're all i'll ever need


har mulaqat ka anjaam judaai kyun hai
ab to har waqt yahi baat sataati hai humein...

through coffee and cats,
chicken and shrimps,
clouds and dreams,
foggy streets and rain,
bright mornings and starry nights,
golden green and pink and white...

you have me...forever...

zindagi jab bhi teri bazm mein laati hai humein
ye zameen chaand se behtar nazar aati hai humein...

five haikus...

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one more chapter ends
a new one about to start
the story goes on

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the evil in us
never takes a day off and
tells us what to do

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when we are happy
the winter of life appears
and takes it away

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lizards all around
clicking in the springtime of
youth and decadence

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who calls for me now
in the monsoon of sorrow
with that wailing shriek

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random thoughts...

fat lizard on the wall to my left...unmoving...fat, ugly, lazy thing...is everything in this world beautiful?

is anything?

given a choice, would you lie to someone close to keep them happy, temporarily, or would you tell them the truth and cause them pain?

is time linear or do we only perceive it that way?

is there anybody out there?

helllooooo?!?!?

what is our true purpose in life? attaining perfection or forever striving to be better?

is it right to break the dreams of others to fulfill your own?

can dreams ever be fulfilled?

is god an omnipotent, omniscient, benevolent being who is testing our faith or is she a prankster, having fun at our expense?

does god exist or was he created in man's own image?

was the indus valley civilisation an early vedic settlement or was it destroyed by incoming aryan hordes?

does it really matter?

does anything really matter?

did i make any sense?

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read my latest post and zero's reply on infinity and zero...
it's all about the freedom to choose and whether a choice really matters when there are much larger issues at stake...

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From the Archives:
" Yash, maan, khyati... Na, chai na...Ami udbo, gaan gaibo..." -From the play 'Tota Kahini' by Gautam Sengupta based on a short story by Rabindranath Tagore.